Friday, May 12, 2006
today is VESAK DAY! it reminds me of the lotus. haha.

PROJECT RUNWAY 2 has finally come!! YAY!! :D austin, austin, austin! i have no idea why i love him so much. maybe the fact that he acts gay just turns me on. HA.

ANYWAY, yes i havent been blogging for 2 months. i didn't even record anything in my school diary. strange. let's see..

OH! the 2 week phase of ziploc bags ended yesterday! i have been staying up late, last min revision. hope i get a decent mark. pls? :D art was so screwed. did the theme players. chose football. HA. reminds me of fir. oh and i scalded my tongue. drank really hot milo during the break before paper 2 art history. everybody was rushing and trying to get the info into their heads in less than 30 min. gosh. i came at 7.40 (slept at 3) and sat in the canteen for 2.5 hrs studying art hist. HAHAHA. i don't know if i'd even pass.

GREAT! :)

7 weeks before mid year.march.
the march holidays wasn't put to much use. totally wasted it. was supp to go out with fir but i didn't. haha. just an hr before meeting time, he smsed me. hmm. i was with joyce. AHAHA. was quite disappointed he forgot. i didn't feel quite good anyway. i swear. sorry.

I don't WANNA HOLD YOUR HAND! :)

michel smsed on the 15th. it was quite funny. he smsed me last month again. i didn't reply.

fir turned 16 on the 25th.

6 weeks before mid year.march
-mummy and jacq wong turned 42 and 16 on 20th and 21st. HAPPY BELATED!
-csij(w?) made a pact-to open the o level slips together next year. HAHA.
-i tasted an ice ball on THURSDAY BUDDIES! day with alicia :D tasted like heaven.
-28 is the number that made a fool out of me during english class. YAY :D
-on the 26th: i am stupid. i am the cause. no wonder.

5 weeks before mid year
-stupid family shit.
-ning!
-sports day. HAHA.

4 weeks before mid year.april.
-PFT
-fantasia VI. i went with alicia, afique and ashok. i wore PINK. HAHA.

3 weeks before mid year
-don't remember what happened
-had 2.4km run at nyjc

2 weeks before mid year
-going crazy
-my closest relations went bonkers. i think i was going mad in my own house. but i couldn't allow that! mid year was in 2 weeks. i couldn't afford to let the same thing happen twice.
-had english oral (prelims). i was the last to be tested. it went good! i made mrs alex smile twice and laugh a bit.

1 week before mid year
-malay prelims. BAHH. screwed compo. seriously.
-english mid year
-michel smses on wednesday
-5 A2 boards + 10% coursework due! AHAHHA. stayed till 6 to finish.

today after mid year
-AHAHA. it's raining today. was supp to go out with csij. outing postponed to monday (school hol).
-imaginary cutting helps.

iloveclouds. when god finishes bathing, he pulls out the plug and down on earth, it starts raining! ahaha. just one of my "theories" but of course, i'm sure there's no such thing.

munched at 4:12:00 PM

Saturday, March 04, 2006
:D grin.

hello! i've been trying to sleep around 11 almost this whole week cos i've got lotsa breakouts. bahh, hate it. i realised, also, i haven't been getting much homework. haha.

self awareness camp was awesome! loved the place. loved the people. loved toilet duty.

the whole of last week was filled with 'longing' thoughts. haha. got over it this week after that 9 days. HA. funny. took so long. gosh.

AIN'T NO MOUNTAIN HIGH ENOUGH,
AIN'T NO VALLEY LOW ENOUGH,
AIN'T NO RIVER WIDE ENOUGH,
TO KEEP ME FROM GETTING TO YOU!

haha. bsc sang that for superstar auditions. i sorta managed them. heh. they got into the semi finals! yay! alicia too! :D

we did up the cca noticeboard. it's a lomo-cam inspired theme. cool.

my angel has been really nice to me! haha. she gave me kit kat wine (which i unfortunately couldnt eat) and M&Ms (which i could eat). i love her! haha. shall buy her sth :D

a cut on my left hand. accidentally, i supp. it made me think of temptation of making it deeper. ha. but i didnt.

i received a card from ms ratulangi. my eyes welled up. haha.

DANCE, as though no one is watching you
LOVE, as though you've never been hurt before
SING, as though no one can hear you
LIVE, as though heaven is on earth.

i like that poem. i love it.

iloveclouds. i think i'm happy.

munched at 12:53:00 AM

Thursday, February 16, 2006
HELLO! :D

ahaha. i'm having my sec 4 self-awareness camp tomorrow! HA. at bukit timah, chesnut drive. yeah. gona be a hell lot of fun, crying too. hmm. brenda says the mattress might have bed bugs. haha :) i didn't even think of that. we've been trying to collect cardboard boxes for the past 2 days. more like stealing the box then running away. AHAHA. right. anyway we're gona steal a bit from the big cardboard stack under the staircase tmw. hope the aunty doesn't catch us. heh.

HAPPY post-VALENTINE'S DAY!! cecilia's seoul garden treat cos i had mc for monday. we had a "total day off" today cos the sec 4s did rly gd. but i came back for mass practice where i totally stoned cos not supp to sing. so this week, i've attended school only twice.

back to the seoul garden treat. cecilia, ivena, see kei, joyce and me :D we had fun cooking/burning/boiling our over/under cooked food. ahh, such joy. HA. bumped into mabel and her dance juniors at ngee ann city. ooh. danceworks!

i didn't buy any valentine's goodies this year. i think i keep procastinating. money is a bit of an issue so i've cut down the ppl on my list. haha. most prolly will give them the goodies next tues (a wk aft valentine's). heh.

january has been a blur and i don't even rmbr it. good thing for the sch diary. ha. but i'm enjoying every heck of it. loving it till who knows when. bahh. let me update a bit!

JANUARY
6th, friday: SCHOOL STARTS OFFICIALLY! ms jacq yip- the photoboard hangs over us. actually she thought of better ideas of making us talk during english. ah wells.

9th, monday: HOMECOMING MASS! me ning kat angeling. such fun.

10th, tuesday: HARI RAYA HAJI! think my cousin is avoiding me. bahh.

12th, thursday: PROFILING TEST! omg, hot nerd. haha.

14-15th, weekend: LANTERN MAKING COMPETITION at expo. god, all our pineapples looked rather, well, off. haha. but each team is receiving 188 bucks so i guess it's alright.

16th, monday: my FIRST- chem prac & aep lesson of the year

18th, wednesday: CHEAPSKATE LUNCH with yus and sandra at causeway point. i got cheated of my money when i bought 5 small half-filled currypuffs for 2 bucks. sheesh.

20th, friday: NYP OPEN HSE! me, my sis, shahrana, jacq, valerie, nadra and her friend. we all had fun. the goodies they gave us added so much weight to our already heavy bags.

24th, tuesday: CCA WELCOME PARTY! it was part success and failure. gosh, 50 over ppl in my cca. the unwanted ppl, some more. so hard. but i'll keep trying.

25th, wednesday: HEALTH SCREENING! omg, my eyesight has totally worsened. HA. i couldnt even make out the first huge letter without my specs T.T cries. im gg blind. mehh. some ppl said they were checking 'down thr' for hair. AHAHA. it didn't happen to me.

27th, friday: CNY MASS! my very first mentor-junior assgt. with hui ying and anju. i'm so proud of them :D

30th, monday: CARENA COMES TO SPORE! so happy :D

FEBRUARY
2nd, thursday: ive been a BAD GIRL. why is it that i've adopted a cannot-be-bothered, do it later attitude? malay class, tense. CHANGE YOUR WAYS, sarah!

3rd, friday: 2.4km run. haha. muscle ache the next day.

4th, saturday: OUTING WITH CARENA AND NADIA! oh it was so fun. took neos and walked and stoned along orchard rd. didnt buy anything, got a muscle ache. zul is a new friend.

7th, tuesday: CONFESSION-motherdaughter thing. HA. i made a new friend cum cca junior, KATRINA! haha. it was rly hard to talk to her at first after a while, she opened up as i persisted. haha. shan called about the scouts-guides favour which he was very thankful for when i 'rescued' him. HA. zul is a bad friend.

8th, wednesday: skipped the student leaders' investiture rehearsal. HAHA. angel-mortal, wy.

11th, saturday: profiling analysis. 4 hrs. found it useful.

12th, sunday: cecilia treats us!

13th, monday: didn't go to school!

14th, tuesday: HAPPY VALENTINE's day! CLARKE QUAY photographic outing! was a success and failure. haha.

15th, wednesday: happy post valentine's day! msged fir about franz ferdinand, didnt intend to.. i'll get things sort out on sunday. sheesh.

16th, thursday: TODAY! franz ferdinand concert! which i unfortunately did not attend. SOB.


you know, i didn't know i had so many things going on in january! oh my gosh. haha. how time flies while you're having 'fun'.

i don't know what to do this sunday. i'm so dead. why do i get myself into these kinda things? i thought i've already decided to forget it TOTALLY- that jan8 incident. and now..start over? hmm.

i hate it.

iloveclouds. it's nice to update again. am i a different person now? i duno what the hell i'm doing.

munched at 10:48:00 PM

Sunday, January 08, 2006
AHAHA :D

firstly, a very happy new year! even though i am late by 8 days. haha. i sent almost everybody on my contact list a happy new year msg :) well, i HAD to use up my sms if not it would be wasted. seriously. haha

i was proven wrong by fk when i finally met him online this morning. HA. man, why did i give two hoots about him in the first place? : rahh. anyways, while reading THE ANYBODIES (which i recommend very much) i realised that i didn't actually like like fk but i cared for him. and at that time he just happened to like me and was desperately looking for a gf (i think) and i seemed to talk to him almost everyday so maybe he got the wrong msg and i was in my depression and told him my probs, that i seemed to be interested in him. so yes, after 2 years, i finally realised -_-" better late than never, i guess.

i find ms quite shallow.

20 dec 05: cca comm meeting. si yinn, ning, me present. at tp macs. haha.
had a.math at kak dilah's hse. they stuff me with food :D

24 dec 05: sch shoes, mum, snatch, cry, turned away.
love? never ever.
jurong pt.

27 dec 05: make up class at ms quek's. hui yi and ms quek's sis was there. haha.
COUSIN SLEEPOVER!! was pissed tho.

03 jan 06: 1st day of sch! took the train. met jacq wong at the ctrl stn. i walked towards the left which led to the bus int instead of the right which would have led me to the underpass. ahaha. i realised it then i sheepishly turned right. haha.

05 jan 06: fought, prayed, cried, sent, avoided, afraid :( was very afraid.
banner painting! ahaha, had lunner with ning at np. gummy under ning's shoe. haha.

06 jan 06: CCA meeting # 2

ahaha. yeah that's all. not much. feeling the tension brought about by O's. haha.

iloveclouds. CARENA'S IN TOWN! :D but her other family is keeping her to themselves. rahh.

munched at 4:28:00 PM

Sunday, December 18, 2005
Okay, so i have reason to blog. ahaha.

how long has it been since i last blogged? it occurred to me last night when i was abt to fall aslp that i should blog. hmm. yeah.

why didn't i blog? well, basically i couldn't even express what was really really going on. i had to use 'codewords' or any oth word linked to that event. i duno, i didn't feel 'free' to do so? hmm.

this year has been really fast, i must say, which was like last year too. fast. i just realised i'd be sec 4 next year and facing my O's. god. how bloody fast is that. and the whole cca and class thing. i'm feeling scared, excited and all the mixed feelings about next year. also cos (hopefully) i'd graduate with good results and will be 'free' and get on to poly or sth (as i've always dreamed of and really looking forward to. haha.) and will be 16 (which would be at the end of the yr)! really fast. it's just that, i don't really think i'm ACTUALLY gona be sec 4 next year, like i'm still younger or sth and don't fit that sec 4 'criteria'.. HA. i bet you don't even understand what the heck i'm saying. ahaha. nvm.

actually, this year there has been a lot of quarrelling going on in the family. just the grown ups. hmm. was afraid. divorce. and all that shit.

OKAY, THIS WASN'T REALLY HOW I IMAGINED THIS POST TO BE..

anyway, my bday was 9 days ago. (OH YEAH, HAPPY BDAY TO KAK DILAH! AND HAPPY DEATH ANNIVERSARY TO YE YE.) the most unexpected ppl wished me and the ones i actually expected, didn't. haha. strange. thanks for wishing me and thanks for the card you made me, kak nadira! haha. could you have actually wished me? (fir and michel) could have actually wished me. how can you forget my bday? no offence to the rest who didn't but this two.. ugh. ahaha.

i can say so much about them here. i've decided not to. supposedly, one dumped me and the other, hmm, disappears. i am angry and upset and everything. rawr :(

UPDATES:

14 nov: carena khoo sends me e-mail! yay! :D it's been so long since we've been in touch. she's in uni now :) she's coming down to spore next yr. heh.

20 nov: watched HP goblet of fire at northpoint. preferred the 1st and 2nd movie.

23 nov: got a haircut. AHAHA. didn't turn out what it was supp to look like. ended up with short hair. ahaha. my music teacher says it has no shape. :( ahaha. which is true, my hair has become wild lately. it's almost a month later and already growing wild. can you believe that?

24 nov: for the first time in how long? michel actually calls me. god. i was practically shaking all over while talking to him. i wonder why. he explained why he hasn't been in contact with me and all that of which SOMEONE should have done. yes the SOMEONE, who supposedly dumped me just a yr ago.

and RENOVATION works start!! for my toilet, the parents' toilet and plastering of the hse. heh.

28-30 nov: CLASS CHALET!! which i unfortunately could not attend. :( haha. had psle madrasah which sucked! esp al quran. where you had to memorize like 21 surahs and then the SCARY invigilators would ask you 1 and all that. i was so nervous. haha. hopefully i did okay for the whole psle thing.

30 nov: i was down with a serious case of something to do with my stomach. had diarrhea which was just accidental. had to swallow pills which was my first time cos the doctor forced me to. wahh. haha. i love bananas!

i also watched TWIST OF FATE! at the esplanade theatre. laura michelle kelly!!! :D it was my bday present haha. watched it with nadia :)

2 dec: EX EM1 GATHERING of which only 4 of us came. ruz naz yus and me. how pathetic. had a blast. lotsa gossip. felt a lil sorry for khairyl tho. seriously. who was at msia f.cking. hmm. we also watched chicken lil

9 dec: my bday. yes. i'm 15!

10 dec: made my IC on this day cos the day bef, we were too busy. :( we wanted to put in my chinese name but couldn't. we have to get a letter from the school or sth. i had fun. daddy and i went to his boss jeremy's hse. the boss wears volcom! god. and he's 40+. haha. cool anyways.

13 dec: class dinner. at fish&co ctrpt. interesting. joyce and me went to marina sq and suntec city bef that. joyce really likes skin care products, i realise. haha.

14 dec: date with my GRAND aunt betty. haha. funny funny. nai nai also fell down at the market the day bef. OUCH.

7 dec: went to ikea in the evening. PUMA GUY!! god, i embarassed myself in front of someone i barely knew. cries. but he was hot.

today: we went to msia. medicine. sushi king. i didn't realise i was eating RAW salmon. but it tasted the same! ahaha. bought the soda top! what i love about soda is their tees <3>legally blonde show on channel 5. hmm.

i realised that i can't really blog seriously and i can't actually talk openly about certain stuff. ahaha. i'm fine with the way i blog with my updates. wahaha which nobody really takes notice of but it doesn't really matter :D

iloveclouds. just when i think i was hot, i see someone else hotter. AHAHA.

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Saturday, October 15, 2005
I DON'T WANNA BLOG NO MORE.

Updates:

3-4 sept:

Madrasah camp was rather interesting. Wore long sleeved tees. Praying time was fun, (tedious when taking wu'dhu). Yeah. Had lots of syarahans. Bahh. It's a camp for god's sake. Sheesh. Why'd you wana throw in so many syarahans? I managed to survive the really noisy and uncomfortable night.

The fun part was rollerblading. Made friends with the instructor's 5 yr old daughter, hanna. Haha. She's so cute. My team members were a great bunch of ppl, personalities really shone during the "treasure hunt" like quiz thing. I like them. they're loony :D

5-11 sept: 1 week sept hol

-the sec 3/jc1 aep tie-dye workshop. It was cool. Felt rather left out though.
-the cluster arts carnival preparation for the hols. We'd be going to the primary schools to teach them art. Ij's gona do stenciling. We do our own stencils. Cool huh?
-went for my ortho appt. that potential rapist guy at ngee ann city library. HAHA.
-study session with joyce!
-tuition. Her bf. -.-
-did animation stuff (which btw I fininshed on the 14th and turned out great)
-hazwanie came over. How random.

12-18 sept: week 1 term 4

-started to feel the pressure of fye which was 3 weeks away cos I couldn't even find the time to study during the one week break.
-covered the sec 1 inter class drama competition with stefhany. HAHA. We gave a critical review of each class. But sadly we decided not to hand it in as our final article. Sigh.
-bought kiko that big $75 cage. it's PURPLE!
-went for that SAGE thing. We're doing cip as traffic wardens or sth like that.
-got frustrated with fingers :
-daddy fell sick cos he didn't have enough sugar. Why? He had been following that crazy diet.
-we read yasin 3 times. God. Almost died.

19-25 sept: week 2 term 4

-HANNA TURNED 1 ON 20 SEPT!!
-Mr. Popcorn and Ms. Candyfloss! Hee.
-hp spotcheck. Hmm.
-english oral. Man, I can't really communicate.
-they fought. I must be someone with no feelings.

26sept-2oct: week 3 term 4

-realised I needed to rush. BAD!
-FYE: English ppr 1 & 2
-covered the assembly prog. Power 98 and ronin (local band) came over and played. HAHA.
-daddy helped me with my mock-up. Used kiko's bathing sand. It is of course, CLEAN and UNUSED. Haha.

3-9 oct: week 4 term 4

-HAPPY BDAY TO IVENA, SAVINA, NIRASHA, CONNIE! And all the oth oct babies. Haha.
-(4to7) fye. Gosh. I could not believe that week's already over and it's like almost the whole year's work is done. WOW.
-BULAN RAMADHAN started on 5sept.
-buka puasa at wak nah's hse
-did aep prepwork on Sunday. Drawing & painting ppr was the next day. HAHA. But I felt the time used was used wisely. I did everything in one day! HEE.

10-16 oct: week 5 term 4

-(10-13) fye.
-class comm meeting at 11 am junction 8. haha. Got a new bag! $12 :D
-bumped into nabilah aft ngaji. turns out she ngaji at my mosque and madrasah at al-junied. haha.
-I just came back from wak yati's hse. Had buka puasa there! Watched sister's act :D
-issue of clothes. Or is it just me?

iloveclouds. I realize I have done nothing with my life. Now, I don't know what to do.

munched at 11:04:00 PM

Wednesday, August 31, 2005
i realised that i am not over you.

and i should be, i think? ahaha. cos u seem to be over me.

do i seem desperate? oh god.

btw ive seen you wearing a tie! haha. on someone's dp. what was the occasion anyway? i wana know, but i wont get to know it so yes..why bother asking. haha.

that was random. HEHE.

-hmm. i also realised i am a bit of a MUMBLER. maybe a lot. ppl dont seem to understand me sometimes and i have to repeat and repeat and repeat. hmm, that is NOT good.

yeah, definitely not good..

-i also came to finally realise i dont have much of a life? it seems that everything revolves one little 'subject'. is that true? hmm. i dont go out that often. i dont tune into the latest happenings. i dont really have a preference for food or whatever else. so it seems that i have a lot of free time right? RIGHT. so not. my time management truly sucks, judging from how slow i do my work. haha.

-also, i realised that i'm not exactly smart nor am i totally artistically (humanities and all that) inclined. i mean, i do ok in both, but i dont get fantastic results. haha. they're just average. yeah.hmm, then what do i be when i grow up? i cant be a teacher, an artist or whatever. hmm\\i am starting to wonder if it is a big mistake to display my weaknesses here? 0.0

haha. right. i have just disrupted my biological clock and created more drastic eyebags. rahh.

iloveclouds. happy teachers' day! love, sarah :)

munched at 1:35:00 AM